That last post

was rubbish.
And I am constantly reminded how lucky I am and how perfect he is.


No more boy posts!

Since when

is having a boyfriend supposed to make your confidence level go even lower?

I'm just not a big fan

of being fussed over.

My mom had some girl friends over to the pool yesterday for the holiday and I happened to go outside to say hi and talk to my mom and all of a sudden I am bombarded with compliments on my hair and then one friend goes on about me being beautiful and having that "woman" look. Then my mom embarrasses me and starts laughing about my constant "sex hair" to the other girls.

Maybe I'm weird in the sense that I'm not a fan of having people draw their attention to me over my looks. It's one thing if I say something funny, but this is just so different in my eyes. I appreciate it, but it just makes me feel odd?

But the "woman" look comment took me by surprise. I still feel like I am 5 and I look at least 17. I can't possibly be growing up.

Jesus, etc

It's hard to be so excited for Bonnaroo when July holds such an amazing things:

July 6: I turn 21
July 12 - 19: The boy visits. Yes, the boy. Boy boy boy. Sarah is doing the love thing. Fuck off.
July 15: HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF-BLOOD PRINCE comes out / midnight showing and the boy is coming with!
July 27: Breathe Carolina for the 5th time!
July 31: BOB DYLAN

Yeah, way better than Bonnaroo.

This could actually be it.


Fuck.

I'm not ready to talk about this on my blog but :]

It's tricky to rock a rhyme
To rock a rhyme that's right on time
It's tricky tricky tricky tricky tricky tricky

Date update:

July 31st: BOB DYLAN. BOB. DYLAN. I'm serious. THIS GIRL IS SEEING BOB DYLAN.
September 29th: FUCKING BLINK 182. You don't know how long I've waited.

I am going to sob like a baby at both of these. And my mom is going to flip her shit at the Blink concert. Let's just say she's about as excited as me and I'm about to throw up.

This year is amazing so far.

Otis Redding hits so many spots. Especially at 3:30 AM.

I have so much to doooooo

and I have to wait to do it. It would look really silly if I pack my Bonnaroo bags a month before the fact.
There is so much shit to buy and money to straighten out.
If everything goes the way it's looking like it is, then NYC for Thanksgiving is out and June will consist of:
June 3rd: Decemberists in Atlanta (if anyone lets me know if they can come)
June 11-14th: Bonnaroo - Tennessee
June 27th: Patrick Wolf in Atlanta

Did you see that last date? The June 27th one?
Did you?
Hmmm?
Just wonderin'
:]

Maybe I'll update with some lists when I begin to compile them. But I'll definitely update with my Bonnaroo schedule sometime soon.

My new favorite thing in the world is going over to Heather's house on Monday nights with Sharon. Oh, and playing Left 4 Dead. I was walking in my hall last night in the dark and started to freak out because I thought a horde was coming. Yeah, it's bad.

I'm letting myself cry about this nearly 2 days later.

But I can't help but think this is a ridiculous thing to get so upset about.

My sister said the sweetest thing

while we were driving around earlier, blaring the Beastie Boys:
"I don't care if we fight, you're seriously the best sister ever."


Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

Friday night became so lonely,
When you came to make a break,
That seemed to take all day to make me angry 'cause I
Like you, maybe I'm just Like You
Holding on to something that we know we can not hold
or fold it seems we just can't forget
Are you frightened, by perfection?
Is this who you are, not who you want to be,

I walk the line like Johnny Cash
I made the bus in seconds flat
I called your line too many times
I'm not obsessed, just impolite.

Sunday came and went so quickly
now you say you want me back
you will hold on, despite my cons,
it seems we're meant to hate it!
Being so dependent.
But it seems we can believe that we're two peas in this pod
we call New York, gets so lonesome.
Are you frightened, by neglection?
Am I who you want to see yourself to be?

I walk the line like Johnny Cash
I made the bus in seconds flat
I called your line too many times
I'm not obsessed, just impolite

You're stuck on me, you don't know why
Can't leave me anytime you try
They say that everybody cries
so don't think twice 'cause it's alright.

Stay here,
touching you, touching the light in your eyes
that keeps coming back

I feel robbed of my innocence a bit.

I don't really want to go into today's happenings.

In about 12 and a half hours I will be mostly naked with my feet propped up and legs spread.

WELCOME TO BEING A WOMAN, SARAH!

I'm a pretty amazing sister because

I leave my sister Myspace comments like this:



In turn, my sister is incredible because she RSVP'd.

I've only been listening to "Walking On a Dream" for two months and I think that I would be lost without it.

That sounds so ridiculous.

It's just one of those songs that you wait to hear for 20 years.

PAINT WARRRRRRRR

PS in the form of an entirely new entry

My sister and I had a 15 minute conversation regarding Empire Of the Sun's CD jacket. We sounded like two kids on shrooms. I wish it had been filmed because it was hilarious (to us at least). "WAIT WAIT WAIT. What if this is what you see as your space ship goes into the sun and you die?" "OH LOOK! Standing On the Shore... literally!"
"Ohhhh you can walk on my dreams anytiiiiiime"

You had to be there... and have an idea about what the CD jacket actually contains.

PAINT WAR 09 took place last night.

15 things of paint between the three of us. Shit got colorful.

-I got district employee of the month at work which is pretty impressive. So impressive, in fact, that I got a gold button to put on my lanyard.
-My bfff is giving me a face makeover at her work today. Makeup on my virgin face... I cannot help but be a liiiiittle scared
-If my Empire Of the Sun CD does not come in today I am going to lose my mind
-I AM FED UP WITH BEING FUCKING SICK. This cough is not fun.


SCHOOL'S OUT (for me)!
A week and a half of freedom before summer classes.
Fucking. bummer.