I've always been more than a bit off kilter. I never fit into a certain group throughout school and I have far more acquaintances than friends. I fall in love with CD's and books easier than I fall in love with people. I have standards that should be part of some fairytale or Disney movie. I'm too shy and tongue-tied around boys I'm interested in. I laugh at intimacy and have made myself stay far away from it. I'm so dreadfully awkward at times. I get far too lost in plots and characters that I begin to let them take over my reality. I keep myself awake at night, pondering the impossible. I neglect homework so I can blog out too much information.
I guess the point is this...
I want to stop competing for some membership to a group. I want to accept and embrace myself with only my consent. I want to feel alright for staying in on a Saturday night. I just want to feel alright.
Friday, November 28, 2008
We'll always love you, but that's not the point.
Posted by Sairuh at 10:41:00 PM
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Stupid how much of that i relate to. Guess some people just aren't naturally that sociable. I just spent most of a party sitting outside in the rain, only talking to the people lonely enough to come visit me. It's effective, as they then tend to tell you things that they really shouldn't tell anybody. anti-social win...
that's incredibly sad. It's not usually that bad. And i don't think you're that bad either.
I just start to think that there is something wrong with me. Like I repel people.
I don't know...
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